A girl living in her dreamland♥~

TIME: 12:35 AM
DATE: Wednesday, November 2, 2011
TITLE: 2/11/11 12:35 am

Bottle up every thing and keep my lips shut. I think from now on I will just bottle every single thing and stop talking. Don't know why? This fews day I have been thinking of many things, and all this things can't use words to describe. It is so weird this is my first time maybe? Feel that I am all alone here and I don't even feel like talking to anyone else. I just feel like traveling to some where far, some where that I can put down every single thing and stop thinking, somewhere that can make me forget about every thing that happens. Don't talk, keep it, everything to myself, make me feel so sick and tired of living. My life is just like a song, a sad song, a love song, a happy song, a hyper song, a pop song, a rock song, a classic song, a jazz, a folk song or a song fill with wonderful melody. Life? Love? Pain? Though? Okay so what am I thinking? Seriously I have been asking myself for severe times but there won't be any answer... Because me myself also don't understand myself. So what could I said? Who will understand me better than myself? And seriously! What the hell is wrong with me?! I feel so pain, so lonely, and maybe I need some one to love me. Oh bullshit! Am I alone but so what I still have myself my song my ft island. They only thing that can make me feel happy feel warm. Every time went I am feeling low, ft island song and music will always cheer me on. The voice the lyrics the music, it seriously said out how I am feeling now and maybe even said out every thing that I am thinking. Don't really know what is happening to me but I feel so pain inside, very sad song that ft island play and sing make me feel like crying out but there was no tears flowing down. Maybe or I could said that I am crying but the tears don't flow because my heart is the one crying for my now my eyes, so my heart is fill with sorriness and sadness and so my tears is flowing inwards. And that make me feel even more pain than before. But what can I do? I can't do anything about it so I just have to make myself suffer more and more, more than before

TIME: 1:19 PM
DATE: Thursday, September 22, 2011
TITLE:

made a new blog yeapp!!!!
wouldnt tell what the blog name is shall find out yourself :P
this will be fate, if you can it means you have fate with me but if you cant than there is no fate opps!
end of post lol!

TIME: 9:56 AM
DATE: Wednesday, September 14, 2011
TITLE:

Hey blog! LiRu is back~
since i am back, let see what shall i post...
shall take a post from my another half,my ipod!
here it goes: 7september 9:41pm
title: life?love?friends?family?
what is all this feeling?
the feeling of life can be sad can be happy.
soreness, happiness will flow in our blood when different thing happens in our life.
sometimes we can clam right up to the top and feel very happy,
but when we fall right to the bottom, we will just break down and cry out.
happiness always takes place in life but sadness over take over and cover out our happiness.
falling is just like taking a step towards our future.
but some of ask could not over take or control our own emotions when come to falls.
all we can do is break down and cry, but did we even stop and think how to over come in rather than giving up on it by crying?
the answer is no, human will only give up when they fall and will never try again because they do not want to harm them self over and over again.
but what can we do?
we just have to over come it and stand up on our feet by ourselves again.
sometime humans like to blame others for making them sad,angry, giving them trouble, problem or even making them fall.
by blaming others they will feel a little happier as they think that they are not in wrong.
but what can i say?
is their business to blame others but did they even think properly that who is really in wrong?
because when one think happen, everyone of them will also be in the wrong, is not like the only one person is wrong.
i can only say think before you do, you dont want others to treat you like what you treat others.
neither do others want to be treated badly by you.
and if you dont think, until you figure think out or admit wrong,every thing will be too late.
as our one or every thing will just fall and you life will also fall to the bottom and at that time you will feel very hopeless and guilty of how you treated others.
and images will start flowing in your mind.
Love?
once one get into love,or being loved, one will feel very happy but once one get out of love...
everything will change, the feeling will be totally different from the start.
the feeling of love and out of love will make one feeling like dying.
one will also start to feel useless, hopeless and feeling lonely with their love one.
one will feel that there is nobody caring them and loving them, and so what is the point living on earth?
this is what love will cause to a life but once one really find someone that will love them forever, one will feeling like flying to the sky the happiness will flow true them each and every day, one will think that he or she is the most happiest or luckiest person in this world.
and sadness will soon fate away.
from there one will live happily together with their love one even when thunder strike, earthquake or any other disaster strike, one will still feel very happy even dying with one's love one.
as one will think that they cant born on the same day but the can die on the same die.
this is the power of the wonderful love.
even if you have a black heart but once you meet some one that you love and someone that love you, your heart will soon changed to pure pink.
friends?
once one got betrayed or back stab by them, one will always keep it in mind and never ever will one trust them again.
one will start to build up a wall in between them and would not allow them to cross over this border.
if one is betrayed the second them,
think no more to even get near to one!
one time of betray or back stab is enough by having a second time?
is too late to have a return if you have already done it.
and say goodbye forever and ever.
one will never ever think of look back for such a friend.
believe it or not by betraying others for 2 time, if you friend forgive you but you over do it again by back stabbing him or her.
so what will happen to this friend ship?
it will all be trash always just like a rubbish.
never will you be able to find it back or fix it back.
so before you scold or back stabbing you friends, remember to think twice, whether you want your friendship to end now or you want it to continue.
if you get into a fight remember to think of what you have done before blaming others just like our life.
how you treat them and they will treat you back the same just like a reflection of the mirror.
think before blaming because you might also be in the wrong but you don't even one to admit it.
it cant be understandable because we are human and no humans are prefect.
but if your friend ignored you, give yourself more time and think over, think that how have you been treating them? think about your behavior, your act or your words this might not have harm on you but to your friend it might me a great harm.
trying standing in their shoes to feel it by your self, if some one treated you badly with a bad attitude, you wound even like it and so do your friends if you treated them nicely they will also do the same and treat you nicely but if your treated them badly and you did release and at last you over do it and think that your friend would not mind.
but i could only say, is too late, your friend might just lift you alone and will never turn back.
like wise when you treated them nicely, listen to there problem,stay with them when they are in pain,keep them company,teach them what is right and wrong, learn your own mistake, try to help them and don't get angry easily over small jokes and most of all be yourself!
every thing with your friend will just work find.
and your friend will even treasure you more!
i just remember i did not write about family on my post-.- shall write it now.
family?
fight over matters like money?
is easy just try saving more money lol.
but singapore is a high expenese country and what can we do?
we just have to work more earn more money and help our parent to save money.
think before buying anything.
like asking yourself whether you need those think or not, is it worth to buy, will it be to expensive, is there anything like this at home, will i use it?
all this question might help.
but when you get into a fight with any family members, remember this you only have one family in you whole life but for friends, you can make more or new friends other time and lover just get a new one.
treasure what belong to you, what's beside you, even if he or she is a stranger.
every single things, single one is precious not to us but to others.
just like your family members is precious to you so do others.
forgive and forget is what we need in a happy family, know what going on on to your family members, whether are they having trouble, problem or a conflict with others, remember to work hand in hand together to over come every thing.
because that we are living under the same roof, having same blood flowing true us, that is why we are closer to each other and we have to love each other more.
no matter what your family members did to you remember to forgive ad forget if you don't than don't be sad after losing it forever.
because who knows what will happen next what will happen to them around them.
forgiving is easy but forgetting is hard.
try forgetting by thinking something happy that you did with them.
nothing will go wrong if every one in the family know how to step aside for each other when each other is in wrong.
ok end of the post finally what a long post!

TIME: 9:43 PM
DATE: Sunday, January 23, 2011
TITLE:

sad life~ boring life~ lala~~ tomorrow will be one great day! i think so. to resort world sentosa! here i come! i mean here we come! stupid things aways happen i hope that nothing will happen tomorrow and every thing will go well~ remember life, remember things, remember all the things that is happening around this earth that look like a ball. everyday look the same but who know what will happen next and when will something good or bad happen to you or your love one. every thing is precious dont wait to you lost it. it will be too late, so be good be kind to every one around you. treated them like how you want them to treated you. i suddenly having so much big words coming out lol!

TIME: 5:19 PM
DATE: Monday, January 3, 2011
TITLE: School reopening!

Sobsob! I want more holiday la! So fast school reopen! Time flys!!! And I am getting older so do everyone else. So sad! Yay~ let's count down to my birthday haha! Is 5 more days and tomorrow is school reopen! So sad! Want more holiday! Nevermind kind of excited too! But there is no change in classmates haha! Only we getting older and next year must chiong le! Bug year for every one in my age de bah! Haha^^ hey people this is my first post of the year! Try to post more for this year! Good year ahead must spend it waisly? Lalala~ I think it will be a busy year! I need to hide my laptop somewhere so I cannot see it than will not play maple! Oh bye-bye maple! I will miss you! And my friends there! Why yay~ later got Korean class bye~