A girl living in her dreamland♥~

TIME: 12:35 AM
DATE: Wednesday, November 2, 2011
TITLE: 2/11/11 12:35 am

Bottle up every thing and keep my lips shut. I think from now on I will just bottle every single thing and stop talking. Don't know why? This fews day I have been thinking of many things, and all this things can't use words to describe. It is so weird this is my first time maybe? Feel that I am all alone here and I don't even feel like talking to anyone else. I just feel like traveling to some where far, some where that I can put down every single thing and stop thinking, somewhere that can make me forget about every thing that happens. Don't talk, keep it, everything to myself, make me feel so sick and tired of living. My life is just like a song, a sad song, a love song, a happy song, a hyper song, a pop song, a rock song, a classic song, a jazz, a folk song or a song fill with wonderful melody. Life? Love? Pain? Though? Okay so what am I thinking? Seriously I have been asking myself for severe times but there won't be any answer... Because me myself also don't understand myself. So what could I said? Who will understand me better than myself? And seriously! What the hell is wrong with me?! I feel so pain, so lonely, and maybe I need some one to love me. Oh bullshit! Am I alone but so what I still have myself my song my ft island. They only thing that can make me feel happy feel warm. Every time went I am feeling low, ft island song and music will always cheer me on. The voice the lyrics the music, it seriously said out how I am feeling now and maybe even said out every thing that I am thinking. Don't really know what is happening to me but I feel so pain inside, very sad song that ft island play and sing make me feel like crying out but there was no tears flowing down. Maybe or I could said that I am crying but the tears don't flow because my heart is the one crying for my now my eyes, so my heart is fill with sorriness and sadness and so my tears is flowing inwards. And that make me feel even more pain than before. But what can I do? I can't do anything about it so I just have to make myself suffer more and more, more than before